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此文獻給:Before SunriseBefore SunsetBefore Midnight

 

第一次接觸傑西與席琳是二十五歲,他們在《Before Sunset》裡的唯美巴黎街道中漫步聊天,而我身旁有一個交往很久的女友,剛起步的工作和平凡的同居生活,當時對於他們所聊的事物,我只能像是霧裡看花,電影嘛,總是會給人夢想。第二次接觸時是二十八歲,一個認識不到兩天的女孩赤裸躺在我胸前睡著,短短三年內我的人生搞得一塌糊塗,我住在單人套房裡每天酗酒抽菸,看不到一半我就關掉螢幕。

 

『我想繼續跟妳聊天。我是說,我不知道妳是怎麼想的,但我覺得和妳有一種……心靈相通。』《Before Sunrise

 

第三次接觸時,我認識了一個幾乎可以稱為靈魂伴侶的女孩(可惜不是在火車上),我們也把《Before Sunrise》配著法式甜點和奶茶重覆看了多次。那陣子,我們共同過著只有小說、音樂、電影的生活,她跟我說,也許你該開始創作,知道嗎,或許我們會再相遇,就像傑西變成作家後在巴黎跟席琳相遇,我說,別鬧了,我這個蠢工程師怎麼可能變成作家。後來,她離開了,我並不感到失落,而是覺得好像有什麼宿命天啟之類的東西打進我的腦袋。

 

『我們一起共度的時間有很特別的地方,我不想貶低它的價值。如果我們硬要強求更多,就好像拼命要把自己商品化或什麼的。』《Before Sunrise

 

後來的後來,我看了無數次的《Before Sunrise》《Before Sunset》,有時候身旁有女孩但她只會說電影終究是電影、現實還是現實,有時候則是我一個人默默看完,然後回顧過往,隱隱感覺到其實好像有發生些什麼,現實不再是現實,而是依附著浪漫而生,不論是在台北街頭與她走長長的路、談長長的話,或是在窗邊一起聽著長長的雨聲,片斷的畫面總是安靜地留在我心中,也留在電影裡面。

 

『我做了個惡夢。夢見自己32歲,醒來發現自己原來是23歲,就鬆了口氣。結果,等到我「真正」醒來,卻發現自己是32歲沒錯。』

『太慘了,偶爾就是會發生這種事。』《Before Sunset

 

出書的第一天,沒有簽書會,沒有席琳與傑西相遇的絕美巴黎,只有淡淡秋天細雨,我與女孩相約去書店買下自己的書,這些年經過現實濡染的我們都變了,面對面默默喝著咖啡,她的憂鬱症漸漸獲的改善,也找到份穩定的工作,反倒是我,現在竟然離開了職場,還到了巴黎找尋電影場景,她笑著說,我們好像在某段時間內交換了身份。

 

一如日出、日落,我們出現、也會消失。對於某些人來說,我們是如此重要,但其實我們只是過客。』

『敬!過客。』Before Midnight

 

Before Midnight》這段話打動了我,第三部更增添了現實的元素,世界周而復始,生命逐漸凋零,片中許多爭吵畫面,再再說明即便他們是命中註定的戀人,還是得挑戰現實的無奈,觀影後,我深深呼了一口氣,或許有人說不太浪漫,但我覺得這是三部曲中最成熟的一部,很完美的結尾,沒有壯烈、沒有曖昧,實實在在挑動生活與生命的神經,我想起女孩,某些原因我們無法一起觀影,但我想,我們與他們一直都在,直到夕陽落到愛琴海的那頭為止,我們一直都在。

 

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English Version

I was 25 in when the first time I know about Jesse and Cline.They walk and talk in beautiful Paris on movie “Before Sunset”.And I had a girlfriend,a normal job and live together ordinarily.I had no idea what they were talking about in the movie.And then,I was 28 in when the second time to know about them.A girl who just know each other two days lie on my shoulder in naked.I ruin my life within three years.I lived in a single flat and drunk everyday.I shut down the computer without finishing the movie.

 

I want to keep talking with you,I mean,I have no idea what your situation is,but I feel some kind of …Connection.”Before Sunrise

 

The third time I watched the movie when I encounter a girl who could be my soulmate(it’s pitiful that not on the train).We watched the movie many times and have French desert and milk tea.In that time,we lived in nothing but the novel,music,movie.She told me that you should start to write.Maybe we will encounter just like the writer Jesse encounter Cline.I say,it’s couldn’t be happen.I’m a stupid engineer not a writer.She left me before long,I have no regret in my mind but lots inspiration go inside me.

 

“I don’t want to cheapen what’s special about our time together.If we push for something more,It’s like we’re trying to commodify ourselves or something.” Before Sunrise

 

Day after day,I watched many times of “before sunrise”&”before sunset”.Sometimes,a girl beside me and said that movie by movie but reality by reality.Sometimes I watched it by myself and recall memories.There were something real in pastime.The reality not just reality but stay by the romantic.However,I walked beside her or talked with her on the long street in Taipei or listening the rain sound near by the window together.The scenery always keep in my heart and in the movie.

 

“I had a terrible nightmare.I was having an awful dream that I was 32,then I woke up and I was 23.relieved,and then I woke up for real and I was 32.”

“Aw,shit,it happens.” Before Sunset

 

The first day I publish my book,no signing promotion,no Paris with writer Jesse and Cline,only have slightly rain with Antumn.I went to buy my book with that girl.We were all changed because the reality influent in these years.We having a cup of coffee silently.Her melancholia getting better and find a stable job.But I quit my job now.She said with laughing.We just like have a reversal life in somewhere,sometime.

 

“Like sunrise and sunset, we appear, and we disappear. We are so important to some, but we are just passing through.”

“Salud(maybe?),for passing through.”Before Midnight

 

This conversation in movie “Before midnight” touched me.It’s make additional into the movie with life reality.The world continuing but life withering.Many quarrel scene in this movie.It prove that even you are the destiny lover but still need to face the reality.After the movie,I take a deep breathe.Maybe someone will say that movie have no romantic.But I think that is the most maturity in these three chapters movie.Perfect ending without heroic and ambiguous.The ideas of movie truly touch the live and life.I thought about that girl.Due to some reason that we can’t watch the movie together.But I think,they are get along with us here forever.Until the sunset down to the Aegean sea.We are staying here and there.

 

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  • Isis
  • 這三部曲棒極了。是我心中最喜歡的愛情經典。
    我想,九年後,再拍第四集也可以,不過如果不,拍到這裡為止,也沒有什麼遺憾了。
  • 是啊。我也跟妳有相同感覺,美好事物就停留在最美好的時候~

    KAI的私領域 於 2014/01/01 23:59 回覆

  • Isis
  • 新年快樂 by the way :)